I Can Love With God's Love

Journal entry @ New Life Northwest, August/11/2011

"Jesus replied: 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbors as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

~Matthew 22:37-40

When we love God with everything we have, we declare that we have NO other gods or idols in our life. God alone is worthy of our worship, admiration and affection. EVERYTHING and everyone else pales in comparison to this great and loving God. This total Heart, soul and mind devotion to God encapsulates our desire to obey all of his commands. And because this loving God loves me, i overflow with love and generosity toward others. No longer do i need control through lies or lust to provide for myself. i do not spend my days wishing for that which others have. i am satisfied. i can love with God's love.

When God is in the center of my life i can rest. and loving others as we have been loved includes declaring praises for all that God has done, through Christ, on our behalf.

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It was incredible seeing God move at camp. I'm in complete awe of how amazing He truly is. I'm lost for words. I loved how I was there at camp, and I could feel my heart changing. And even now, I know God is moving in my life. Sometimes I begin to doubt he's really here, then he shows up and blows me away and leaves me speechless, like tonight. I don't know if this is making any since, I just know I Love God SO stinking much.

Love,

KimmyAnn <3

God Knows My Name

"...The sheep listen to the voice of the shepherd. He calls his own skeep by name and leads them out."

~John 10:3

When we see a crowd, we see exactly that. a crowd. a lard group of people. we dont see persons, just people. a herd of humans, a flock of faces.

But not God. He looks at the whole world. and sees every person individually. he points us out by our names. "The girl with the sad brown eyes is Laura", or, "the boy with the joyful face, thats Max". He knows us like a shepherd knows his sheep. the shepherd knows each and every sheep, he knows their name and behavior. God knows us. he knows out names. out hearts. our behaviors.

"See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me."

~Isaiah 49:16

Quite a thought right? that your name is on Gods hands? Maybe you've seen your name on some special places. maybe a billboard or on an award. or maybe youve heard your name from someone important, like a coach or teacher. But to think that your name could be on Gods hands and on Gods lips? its an honor right?

Or maybe youve never seen your name honored, or you cant remember when youve heard it spoken with kindness....

Some of us go through life, feeling unloved, unimportant, and once we've accepted Christ, we just think everything will be easy. That life will be easy. Unfortunately, things are not easy. LIFE IS NOT EASY. life is tough. and we often feel alone. like no one is there to help us through our hardships.

Believe me, ive been there. ive felt alone. ive thought, "If God was with me, if he really knew my name, and my heart, then why doesnt he help me? why is he making me go through this? Why do i feel so alone?"

"So do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God; i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

~Isaiah 41:10

"But now, this is what the Lord says - he who created you , O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Fear not for i have redeemed you; i have summoned you by name; you are mine. when you pass through the waters, i will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, i will be with you. when you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

~Isaiah 43:1-2

God makes these promises to us. its also up to us to trust him! we have to trust and remember that he knows our name, its written on his hand, spoken by his mouth. whispered by his lips. your name. and he will never forget it.

Love,

KimmyAnn

Wish right now....

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars.

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Love,

Kimmyann <3

So would u like to be my flower?

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance" 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

If friends were a flower, I'd pick u. And only you. I'd probably put u in my crazy brown hair, and take pictures with u. If u fell out I'd pick u back up, blow the dirt off u, and place u back in my hair. I'd show u off, and smell u... Flowers always smell good.

I love you. Words can't describe. Ur my amazing best friend

So would u like to be my flower?

Love,

Kimmyann <3

Sometimes i dont...

somtimes i dont make my bed everyday...

sometimes i dont finish my math assignment on time..

sometimes i dont remind someone how much they mean to me...

but what i hate most is...

sometimes i dont listen to my own advice....

Life can be hard and challenging, oftentimes prompting confusion, despair, and the feeling that God has abandoned you and there's no way out. Sometimes life's challenges are the result of bad choices, and sometimes they hit for no logical reason.

what do you do when your in that hole...when u feel God has given up on you?

...cry out to him...and BELIEVE that he will rescue you from that hole!

"My soul, wait silently for God alone,

For my expectation is from Him,

He only is my rock and my salvation;

He is my defense;

I shall not be moved.

In God in my salvation and my Glory;

The rock of my strength,

and my refuge, is in God."

Psalm 62:5-7

Why is it so hard for me to accept what God's glorious word is whispering in my ear?

Its time for a soul searching,

eye opening,

ADVENTURE

to bring me back to the one who saved my life.

Jesus Christ.

<3

Love,

Kimmyann.

My Life...

i Lost track of what made since to me.

what was real in my life.

and what was just a dream.

God helped me discover what was real.

and my "amazing life"

was just a dream.

i have made lots of decisions the last few months. School started up again, i felt like God was on my back-burner, like he didn't matter in my life. i mean, who needs God when your life is already going great right?

wrong.

i felt like everything was going wrong! and i was up to some hardcore prayers to get myself back on track.

but i did it.

and im back.

and im so BLESSED that God stayed in my heart!

and that some of my friends stayed in my heart.

i have some amazing friends in my life, to help me keep movin in the right direction :)

1. JESUS CHRIST <3

2. Marci lynn

3. Josh

4. my daddy :D

There the reason why i am who i am today. im such a lucky girl to have them in my life.

well thats really it. not much has happend. just God moving in my heart.

‎"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." -Jeremiah 29:11

worshiping the one who gave his life for me ツ

just some key terms from the last few weeks......

volleyball. worshiping the one who gave his life for me ツ. praying. texting. bible time. shopping.

thats about it.

summer is winding down, and coming to an end. its so sad.

school starts in 1 week! YIKES!

ive been reading my bible like crazy lately!

i LOVE LOVE LOVE it!

im learning so much about myself!

ill type up a small piece about that tomorrow ;)

tomorrow ill actually write a good post.

with pictures....

and scriptures....

(that rhymed)

sorry people, who keep expecting a good blog.

i had a lady email me yesterday and ask me when i was going to start blogging again.

i felt bad for her.

she must like my posts.

im Sorry Lady.

ill call her spring.

thats wasnt her real name you know.

so..

im sorry spring.

look forward to my BETTER blog tomorrow!

God Bless,

love,

Kimmyannツ

whatever.

the last few days? not so exciting.

well silverwood was fun,but i barfed. gross.

im not in a very exciting mood like i usually am.

i should go read my bible. havent done that lately.

and i should be in bed, but im not.

i get to go camping tomorrow! and i get to see cousin Ashley.

she named her dog Donkey. weird.

volleyball starts in just over a week. should i play? not sure.

i think this is about it for me.

im in such a great mood *sarcasm*

and im being so creative on this post! *sarcasm again*

im not even going to add a picture.

or a video.

like i usually do

im not going to do anything like i usually do.

because i dont want to.

Goodnight.

love,

kimmyann

p.s.

God Bless. <3 hehe =")

lets pray ok?

my day consisted of.....

bendy straws ~ txts messages ~ praying ~ pizza ~ my bible ~ taking notes ~ "i love you"s ~ talking to the boyfriend ~ Rachel Wood ~ napps ~ walking the pup ~ colored pencils ~ hairspray

Rachel Wood passed away on August 4th, 2010. This is going to sound strange, but i never met miss Rachel Wood. she was a friend of my boyfriends, and had drowned in a lake close to where i live. i dont know her age, or anything about her. but for some reason her death made an impact on my heart. makes me think about life, and how greatful i should be to still be living here on earth, because at any second, ANY SECOND, my life could be over.
but theres a good side to this. she also made an impact on my heart, because i am jealous of her. She gets to go start her eternal life in HEAVEN! and she gets to meet JESUS!
so my question for you to think about is, If you died today, what would u say to Jesus? what would you do? How would u react?
i would fall on my face and cry! and thank him! over and over and over again! my mind would be going over a milion miles an hour! just thinking about it makes tears roll down my face! i cant wait to experience that! to experience meeting JESUS CHRIST face to face! what an honor that will be.

i dont know what else to say....lol im gonna go play some Guitar Hero with some friends! Love you all. :) thanks for checkin out my blog. and listening to my heart. pray for Rachel Woods family. please. and. thank you<3

love,

kimmyann

jesus uploads videos in heaven :D

Lately ive been watching a lot of videos from the youtube channel called "SHAYTARDS". they have a video diary of the familys life, over 500 videos, one video every day. This Specific video is about Shays daughter telling her mom that she is afraid to die. its shays duty to tell his young daughter where people go after they die. the hard part is, he wants to get this moment on camera, raw and real and wants to say what he believes, but doesnt want to cause a delema with his youtube fans. i think Shay does an excellent job on telling his daughter and other 2 children where they do when they die. i adore this video, i hope you like it too.

love,

kimmyann

Passion of the Christ = I HAVE A PASSION FOR JESUS CHRIST!

i experienced the movie "passion of the Christ" tonight at the youth group i attend. this is what happened....

I showed up not really knowing what to expect. ive heard lots of stories about this movie. comments like "its long and boring, its hard to understand" or "watch it, it will change your life".

i started watching it, some parts i didnt understand and had to ask questions at the end. i got so in dept with it, i felt like i was living in the movie. When Jesus was arrested i felt sorrow! when there were cute flashbacks, i felt the JOY!

i got so into it! i dont remember doing anything else. my eyes were fixed on that screen! i dont remember blinking, gosh i dont even remember breathing!

the part that was the hardest to watch was when Jesus' poor innocent hands were being nailed to the wood of the cross He had carried. i do remember my emotions in this scene. i remember tears streaming down my face, just watching. like i said, i felt like i was in the movie, i wanted to reach out and just hold Him, the Son of God.

i made it through the end of the movie. totally emotionless after that heartbreaking scene. i couldnt move my eyes, i felt like i was watching the the last few minutes of his painful life, and i guess i was.

at the end of the movie i thought i was fine, thought the movie was realistic, but had made no impact on me.

then it hit me, like a ton of bricks.

suddenly i felt an overwhelming feeling of SORROW! and HAPPINESS! and LOVE!

THAT MAN DIED FOR ME AND FOR YOU BECAUSE HE LOVED US!

plain and simple people!

i feel so sad that he had to go through all that pain for me. especially since im a wreck! i am nothing compared to what JESUS was! what JESUS is!

as i write this i cry, i am so overwhelmed with a mix of feelings i never thought i had.

i cant wait till i pass away, and i get to sit at the feet of the Man who died for my sin.

thats all that can come out.

everything else inside me is stuck, im so speechless, and in love with MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST!

love,

kimmyann

July 15, 2010

my day?
really sucked.

it was his birthday. only got to see him for an hour.
and he was with his friend
our time together wasnt as special as i wanted it to be

lately ive been short, on patience. Lord please help me with that.

"A hot-tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a quarrel." Proverbs 15:18

Love <3
kimmyann

My wants....

When i grow up
i want a small fishbowl
with 1 or 2 fish,
because i think fish are loverly

when i grow up
i want a little volkswagon beetle,
baby blue please

when i grow up
i want a husband that wears slippers
in the morning

when i grow up
i want a small house,
on the beach,
where i can watch the sunset out my living room window

when i grow up
i want flowers growing in my front yard,
mostly orange,
thats my favorite color

when i grow up
i want the family to go to drive in movies,
i adore the drive in

when i grow up
i want adorable little children,
who will love blowing bubbles as much as i do

this is me
and what i want
<3>
Kimmyann